Sha-Bel! At the Disco

On Hiatus

2009-08-09T19:56:00.003+08:00

By Sha & Bel

Sha will be moving to another blog

http://www.mlamsudahmampos.tumblr.com/

and bel will be moving to her private blog. She will be occasionally update this blog.

This blog is officially on hiatus.

Bad day

2009-07-31T12:49:00.009+08:00

By Sha

After my fucked up NTP presentation, I get the hell out of that filthy lab, sat on the stairs and begin reflecting about myself. There are tons of questions which I seek for an answer but they were never answered till today. Figuring out what do I want in life, what do I get out from this never ending problem. School is being a bitch to you yet you have to face it every now and then. Though you felt as though your image was tarnish yet you have no choice but to move on if I were to continue studying. Sometimes I don't know if this is what I want, looking back at the things I've done throughout my entire life of being a low-life-ugly-mutated-deprived-mind-good-for-nothing person. God, why am I having such situations in life? Why can't I have a simple life?

All this while, I thought maybe one day, God can send me someone, a special friend who can bring me out of misery. Out of my abyss for once and give me the happiness that I always yearn for. That very happiness. That very piece in life. Where I can laugh my heart out. In fact, right now I miss hanging out with my bestfriends. I miss laughing with them, doing all sort of things and get stupid in public just for the fun of it. Now, they having their own life. They have enough problems on their plate and I should learn to be independent, solving my miseries one at a time.

Crying won't even solve the problem. I know that but when you need to cry your heart out, you just have to. I can't hold back my tears. Im not strong as I seem to be for some people. All I need is friends. Friends where I can look upon to, where I can always call them my flesh and blood, where I can regard them as my family. Yes, that is the word. A family of my own, consisting of friends whom I trust dearly. My love ones are already part of my family to me. Sigh. You know, there this one song that really suited for this context. "Only happy when it rains by Garbage". That song really sounds how I feel so fucked up today. Pour your misery on me

An advice for me. "Stop it k. Be strong k. Everything will be fine. Go wipe your tears k ain. Someday somehow, your friends who you called your family will cheer you up like never before"

Shits again

2009-07-30T21:19:00.002+08:00

By Sha

Presentation for entreprenuership good for nothing finally over and done with. Three cheers for that. Left with my stupid RAD practical test and NTP presentation.

Take note, I bloody hell hate presentation to the core. Nausea along with nervous breakdown make me go pee pee. Heheh

And without even realising it, fasting month is just round the corner. Can't wait to break fast with the fellow muslims in NYP. What else to blog here? Nothing much.

IGOTTOSTUDYMYASSOFFRIGHTTHISINSTANCE

Move away BOY

2009-07-30T02:36:00.004+08:00

By Sha again

I just couldn't understand why some men would even want to haunt their prey even though its clearly stated that there are strings attached.

For fuck sake, leave my bestie alone. As clear as a crystal so clear that if you were to place it under the bright sunlight right directly under your ugly eyes, you will go blind afterwards. My bestie is attached. Meaning, she has a boyfriend. In army. Now which part of the sentence do you not understand you fucking wuss.

Nevermind that, Im doing her a favor. Well it turned out to be hilarious at one point. You see, when this kind of men gets too excited, they can't think nor judge and thats what make them look like a total moron. It was fun somehow for all those evil doing of mine together with her bf and his gang. Planning to break his face for good. Thats what you get for messing with the wrong person. Wrong move asshole, wrong move.

So the story goes like this. This desperate for pussy guy tries to get YOU KNOW WHAT. Asking me ridiculous questions. So me together with her bf and the gang decided to conference when that horny bastard tries to call me. I did. Initially, his friend wants me to pursuade that fucking bastard to call me and conference it so that they can hear all the information being leaked out to me. He called, they listen carefully while me n that pathetic guy talked. I ask questions which they need to know. Surpringsly he didn't find it suspicious that I asked him all that. Stupid huh? I keep it short and hang up. And they got the information they need to whack this fucking guy.

Heh. They will beat this guy into a plump on my behalf as well. Wooopieeee!

and Rin, in God's will, Faiz will get probation. For your baby Ayden, Faiz granted for probation. Amin

Shits

2009-07-30T02:01:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Till when will I finally say that life is going to be an easy sailing for me? When? Only God knows. Haa!!

I was unable to attend this shitty practical test. RAD for that matter. Bloody sickness ruin my health and was force to take medical leave for the day. At least Melissa called me and asked how am I doing. Sweet of her. Thanks mel! =D

Oh well, unforseen forces my ass.

Starting class at 1 pm today and its amazing I didn't bank any sleep at all. Its 2.13 am and Im still on my laptop. I should be reading the powerpoint slides that my team member had given me to take a peek for a bit but all hail to laziness that I couldn't be bothered. Could someone give me a slap on my face or something? That will be helpful. I guess.

But all come to one point when it comes to school. The never ending projects and presentation along with tests and exams just around the corner making me feel agitated for some reason. I just don't feel like doing anything except to sleep, eat, meeting up with friends and die. I need something to boost my energy to a certain extend where I can get all hyped up and scream "IM LOVING IT" whatever and whenver Im doing my task. The fuck thing is, I just hate it when I need to run an errand for my MOUTH-CANNOT-SHUT-UP-NEED-TO-TALK-OR-ELSE-SHE-CAN-DIE-VERY-USELESS-BRAT-KNOW-NOTHING-BUT-TO-KEEP-TALKING-LIKE-THERE-IS-NO-TOMORROW sister. Nonetheless, I should thank her for showing me the movie "The Hangover". Kudos to that I find it hilarious giler babi.

DDI fucking quiz, entreprenuership presentation then home. Such a pain in the ass. Why are we living in a troublesome, problematic, pathetic, chaotic, ruthless, fucked-up, filthy world? If only the world is an easy place to stay and enjoyable.

I HATE SCHOOL TO THE MAX LA!

Thank you

2009-07-20T22:54:00.008+08:00

By Sha

When I first thought life going to be different as it seems but I was proven wrong. Just when I thought I could build my life with happiness and joy of making new friends, things turn sour. There are people who love to see you trap in your own abyss once again.

There are people who was born to be what you would called a two faced bastard. Calling oneself a man is not what one deserves to be called. Queer is perfect in this description. One's image was tarnished for he have the guts to go against one feeble lady. The world is constantly changing without even knowing it. What has come to this very day is indeed against my philosophy of Men. Men who is not sensitive over a female feelings nor heartless and take action using verbal attacks known as gossips and slendering regarding heritage, religion and personality is a detest towards Adam Species. For these actions are taken in women's act ONLY. What does that show? Do you have any shame of what you did? Do you have any idea what makes you look as a whole? Fag. A sheer faggot is in you right now.

If a particuliar man were to point out my mistakes and make a big fuss about it, then I should say, shame on you. Not even one Eve will want to be your comfort, your motivation, your pillar of success, your pillar of strength. Yes, I do make mistakes as repulsive as it is but Im a human, just like you people. I am growing and learning as well. Aren't you learning as well? What right does it gives you to slender people away as and when you like? Who are you to judge me? You are no God to me. You are a human with dark pasts. My friend, you once told me about your mistakes but a pinch of disappoinment came settling in me when I see the hideous animal in you. Is this your act of change? Is this your way of life? No wonder God forbid us to be friends nor even mutter a single word, not even a simple word like Hi is given to you when we walked past. "Fake" is your adjective when you saw me passing by. "Grotesque" is your best description of me when settling down with your ever growing affiliation.

I am rotten to my core at one point. I admit. And thank you fellow "humans", I have grown strong each and every day, every second, facing the same crap that you have put up with. Its sad though, watching the shallowness being spread among the affiliation. Like I said earlier, the world is constantly changing. Wasting your beloved wages just to send you to school to have a proper education, hoping to be loved by the society for your skills and talent but its a waste you are throwing all that back in their face. Being young is not something you should be carefree about. Life is not a bed of rosses with all the thorns in your way. Think about it. 10 years down the road, what have you accomplished? What are you going to answer to yourself when you look back, when you least expected happened? No one else to be blamed.

Sugarcoat the acts just for the sake of concealing it is an act of coward. Remember that.

Nevertheless, thanks for everything. Thank you for all the harsh words said amongst them. I prayed that God have mercy on you people for im not heartless as it seems. God bless all of you. You have my blessings.

Just like an old saying : Once bitten twice shy

On a side note, Im looking for a new. Hope things get better in life in the near future. Sigh why do I always end up in shitty situation.

2009-07-07T22:04:00.001+08:00

D':

May his soul in peace

2009-06-26T11:12:00.002+08:00

Rest in peace Michael Jackson. May your soul at peace. You will always remembered.

2009-06-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

school

2009-06-13T20:40:00.001+08:00

By Sha

It will be nice if I have the ability to make plush toys come to life and do my major test and projects. nice.

Headache. pfftt

Life.

2009-06-11T13:13:00.001+08:00

By Bel.

:D

2009-05-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

By Bel

Don't say i never update.

Disappointed

2009-05-28T18:12:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Well some of you guys know the result for the final.

Barcelona 2 Manchester United 0

Barcelona is strong.I have to admit but still I love Manchester United.

Sigh.

Results

2009-05-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Man Utd won! 0-1
Hull City survived even though lost to Man Utd. So Hull City willbe playing the next season. Too bad Newcastle have to balek kampon and relek one corner.

Glory glory red devils!

Man utd!!!

2009-05-24T17:41:00.002+08:00

By Sha

Tonight its Man utd VS Hull. Man Utd will win. That is very obvious.
Damn
Me got project. So sad. Me want to finish fast. Me want to see the match.
Me so sad. -Insert happy face- LOL

Me me want see Man utd

p.s: LIVERPOOL SUCK ;D

scary mary

2009-05-20T08:07:00.001+08:00

By Sha

I was on the train and I saw someone. LOL
But oh well, gotta be positive about it because life is going to be interesting for us.
Remember I once said in my post? Expect the unexpected?
Heh. Ok im in this nonya class now. Got to focus and she is psycho to be honest.
Scary mary la today. Haha.

BYE

2009-05-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

WOOT!

2009-05-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

By Bell.

It's been a long long long time since i posted something.
Haha...
Gosh, POA tommorrow.
:/

We're the kind of friends,who will kill each other for the last skittle, and then not even eat it.
HAHA! :D

medical check up

2009-05-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

By Sha

I don't get it. They say I am perfectly fine but how come I feel like Im about to faint every now and then. I have to get a grip on the walls or anything that is near me so that I won't fall. My vision is a total blur even may come to black out when I stand or climb up the number of stairs.

Dear doctor,PLEASE CHECK ME THOROUGHLY and make sure that I AM PERFECTLY FINE. PLEASE CHECK MY BLOOD PRESSURE PROPERLY!!

Lazy ass doctors. PFFFTT!

Stupid flu

2009-04-29T21:43:00.003+08:00

By Sha

I didn't go to school because Im not feeling well. That S.O.B texted me and I don't bother to reply back. Sorry if I didn't reply any of your messages my friend, I have things to settle. School, health, family whatever that comes in my way.

Its already starting of year 2 sem 1 but damn, the lectureres gave us proejcts which needed to be submitted on week 5. Baik ke pe.

As for my personal stuff, I have one word for that. F***!

Ok I need to rest now.

P.s : I can have whatever I like. Cool.

Last Long. :p

2009-04-27T00:57:00.000+08:00

Whatever You Like - T.I.

Ahem.
Dedicated to Kak Ain.
;D
Haha.

Awww.

2009-04-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

Cutest monkey ever.

Confuse and lazy

2009-04-20T14:44:00.007+08:00

By sha

Thanks jess for that T.I thingy lol
Im in the lab and I confide my problems to one of my classmate who is sitting right next to me now. I really don't know what am I doing honestly. But whatever it is, we will see how it goes as time goes by.

Im in the lab now and its dead boring. And im so annoyed that there are number of students change their class to my class. I thought I never see them again in my class. Well, i see some familiar faces which I don not wish to see another year with them ever again but too bad, I have to face it. Damn it.

Annoying familiar faces. argh.

DEAD BORING LAAAA

2009-04-20T14:44:00.006+08:00

By sha

Ok let me get this straight. Im like plain lazy to go to school at first. Thank god I saw lyna and I get to meet my new classmate through her and damn I saw Janx, my comrade in the lecture. So far so good.

And the mood eventually came back. To bash this midget in my school. I heard that she is in nursing. Oh wahtever! Too bad I can't find her anywhere and yes I can't even find her at the life sciences block. But its ok, laen hari aje la eh.

Now Im in the lab, freaking bored. Infocomm security. I cannot believe this lecuturer teach us about some hacking pc. Eh, maybe I should pay attention and who knows I might hacked her bloody pc and check her timtable. Nyahaha! Jage kau.

Oh and IM NOT A LESBIAN. Damn you.

p.s : Who want to join me anr rin to bash up this midget in my sch? Join la oi! =D

Bye. I got nothing to say anyway.

Sigh.

2009-04-16T20:59:00.000+08:00

:] please?

My test

2009-04-08T20:38:00.001+08:00

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You

Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Crap.

2009-04-07T20:52:00.002+08:00

By Sha

I seriously need to accompany rin tmr but my family forbid me to do so. Pale buto la kan. Khidir not sure if he can wake up early. Arrrrrrrrrr!

LIFE IS F******* FULL OF MOTHERF****** CRAP LAAAAAAAA

Not feeling good

2009-04-07T15:47:00.002+08:00

By Sha

I don't feel a bit right about my bestie situation. Macam tak sedap hati uh. But nevertheless, I pray for faiz and her baby. I really want to accompany her to the court session but shit happens when your family members like to bother you every now and then. Im afraid I can't accompany her. But then again I have to. Khidir and azy, please reply rin.

On top of that, I miss sue as well. 9 more days to go then she will be back home. Come back sue! I want to wear the sari! lol

Sigh.....I don't know why I feel this way. I hope everything is ok.

Boy, you're going down

2009-04-05T12:58:00.002+08:00

By Sha

So you feel its complicated eh? Tsk3. Thats what you get by being "gatal2" with the others. So now she feel its like hurt. So i come to conclusion that

1) She hurts about you and herself

2) She hurts to leave her old flame

Well, good luck to your so called relationship. Im laughing right now. May you and the muke tembok together like few months or so? LOL

Me and my homies laugh our ass off. Dah nampak sah could not last long pon.

To my bestie rin, stay strong k. Insyallah everything will be fine.

Ermm.

2009-04-04T20:46:00.003+08:00

Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Rain Rain go Away hur hur

2009-04-02T15:03:00.002+08:00

By sha

Woo its raining. Raining cats and dogs and sheep and turtles. Why oh why

Ok I have some good news. I will be studying entrepreneurship as my elective. So i can't wait to start school on the 20th april. I will be in a new class. [Finally!] Because I hate my former class to be honest. Time to disown my class. I will no longer be the class rep because I already shift to different class. So I have to plan my timetable once again and this time, DAMN I BETTER DO WELL IN YEAR 2!! =)
Time management. Huhu

Guess Im kind of in a right track. I hope.

Business still beckons but I have major problem to take care for now and yeah my senior understands. Thanks!

PEOPLE, LETS AIM FOR WHAT WE WANT TO ACHIEVE! GOTTABEPOSITIVE!

Linger by Cranberries

2009-03-24T12:09:00.002+08:00

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Linger by cranberries

Its not auto play so you have to click the imeem player to hear this song and this is acoustic version.

Linger (Acoustic) - The Cranberries

Frustrated

2009-03-23T10:02:00.002+08:00

By Sha

Mood : Irritated

To the man who always nag and nag, please get a life you old fag. Seriously, F! off ok. Asking me not to follow their way of doing things, now who the hell are you to tell me all this? So what we are related somehow but I don't give a F-ing damn about what you said.

You tell me those unlawful things about them Im going to shut you up for good.

Good times

2009-03-16T19:05:00.002+08:00

By Sha

I miss all those good memories. Be it during high school or when you were a kid, you just have those memories that keep you smile. Those wonderful moments.......

So I watched one of my favourite tv shows when I was a kid. The Nanny. I love that show, and that nanny leave me a big impression untill now. Now tell me, who doesn't know The Nanny? Haha!

You know, I prefer the oldies. Simply because it brings us great memories and also it had that feeling which I can't describe. Nostalgia? Perhaps. It doesn't matter if they call us old school, its the nostalgia feeling that matters the most.

Keep on going

2009-03-14T14:53:00.003+08:00

By sha

No one is at home except for my mom. Feel like meeting up with my friends up or something. Im feeling blue nowadays.

Yeah a change of blogskin. Yeah I should consult Jessabel regarding the change of blogskin but I hope she likes it. Sigh

Gosh, I need to get on moving with a fresh brand new start but I seem I can't. Perhaps meeting up with friends should do the trick. Maybe. =(

ARGH

2009-02-17T23:42:00.004+08:00

ANGRY MOOD

>.<

2009-01-31T20:44:00.001+08:00

Argh!

Temper

2009-01-23T21:23:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Haish, life is so unfair.

School and personal life. nyeh nyeh

Life =______=

2009-01-21T20:55:00.003+08:00

By Sha

First money then school after that health.

Money, go find somewhere else. There is no need to hunt me for money because I ain't the person who can give valuable pieces of paper so easily. ^_^

School is a torture somehow. Stupid tests and exams are just around the corner. Aiyah, I didn't even start revising. Die liao

Lastly, my health is killing me. aiyoh

One last thing, Im tired of people who won't listen to advise because there is nothing I can do about it. Don't just sit down and cry, get up and do something though it hurts like hell. I hope one day you realise on your own and do something about it. You know who you are *grins*

A friend

2009-01-20T02:24:00.003+08:00

By Sha

I can help you but its all up to you to decide whether or not to do it or don't. Its time for you to think of a way. Yes you can, the more you say you can't, then you can't. You know that it WILL happen if we think of a certain things and things will happen. Then what have you got to lose dear friend? The reason you fall is simple. God is testing you and you have to pass the test. And you must be wondering why you fall again and again. Then ask yourself, what is the mistakes which you totally oblivious about?

You give in

I was like you in the past and now God have send me someone who I should help right now. I tend to give in when I was in your stage.

Im not saying that if you didn't give in it means you are evil in any way, selfish in one way or the other. No. You must be patience and at the same time, don't give in too much. If you want to survive in this world, you got to do it even though its going to make things worst in a way. Because you never know what God have plans in you. Don't dwell on your sorrows every now and then. Get up, wake up, scream like hell and say "DAMN IT, IM GOING TO DO WHATEVER IT TAKES" and stomp off that crib and do something. Im serious, im dead serious. You can ask friends to be by your side but its up to YOU to change it. You want to change it but damn, you must have the effort. Its not the end. Bloody hell not the end.

Accept the facts. Accept and learn from it. Don't be stubborn and don't go with the flow that much. Set a direction for your life, don't say No this No that. Be firm on what you are doing. Plan what you want in life, don't say you don't know what you want because there is something you want but you got to search it for yourself.

Lazy ass

2009-01-16T10:15:00.005+08:00

By Sha

I have not yet start my paintings and drawings. Exams are just around the corner. Next month to be exact. Common test is next week on Wednesday. There is nothing much I can do but to go with the flow.

Projects is another thing which I must stress on. I always have this mantra in mind when it comes to projects but my body just couldn't coordinate with what it was saying over and over again.

"Projects during the break, seek help from the lecturer at their office and do it"

All I ever do was to sit down and look up the sky. Oh bummer, im lazy to do anything right now. My hands keep calling for their master 'DRAW! DRAW!' but I just couldn't be bothered.

I need inspiration damn it!

Life

2009-01-13T19:55:00.005+08:00

By Sha

My shared blog seems dead. Been busy with school and work. Brother is another thing which I have to endure. The pride in him really annoys me to death. But I will not let his words affect what Im doing now. To hell what he thinks of it. Its his problem.

Jessabel, nazira and azmir. Thanks for giving me the moral support. And I remembered what azmir said

"Buat bodoh dgn drg."

Its true. Though I hate those nasty remarks they gave me but heck, its my life damn it. I shape my life, not you so get lost.

Pak ngah, I miss you and mak ngah. I didn't get to see the both of you often. Among the relatives, only the both of you whom I respect the most. Pak ngah, I will uphold the promise that I made the other day. I will take good care of my dad. Dad, if only you know how I feel towards you and pak ngah. If only you knew.

Its hard to trust people nowadays. I always been the pampered one. But as years went by, I began to realise how silly I become, dependant on others and letting people to give me a path in life.

One word to all that. FUCK

Now its time to turn the tables around. No longer I want to be dependant on people, I am a grown up lady now and still growing and to hell what people thinks about this.

Dad, you deserve better life, not the life you are having now. Pray for me that I can make it in my life both in studies and my passion. Thank you for supporting me all these while.

Where is....

2009-01-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

Maks?!?

By Sha

2009-01-02T23:55:00.003+08:00

To someone [the one who never fail to ask me if Im ok like a million times for some reason] if you can't differentiate between me and my godsis, here is a simple way to tell.

By Sha - It's me
By Bel - It's jess, my godsis

Ok, get it now Mr On The Way To Victory But Fail To Talk To A Lady Like Me? =)

So Mr "the name mention above", hit your Pee-See-Ai soon HAHAHAHA

Hello 2009

2009-01-02T09:57:00.004+08:00

By Sha

Sorry that I didn't post any shits for a long time. Hectic moments for me. So hope you understand =D

I cut the story short. I was having a good time. =D

Bye

Bye 2008...

2009-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hello 2009!

2008-12-30T18:19:00.000+08:00

Life

2008-12-14T15:33:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Sorry that I didn't update for so long. Im busy as usual and also, Im lazy to update and now, Im on my bed with my laptop infront of me, typing this shit out for you readers.

Ok, life being a teacher is quite fun but tiring as well. Though I only have to be a teacher for one day but its quite interesting for me to actually teach small little angels. Heheh, even a mother is learning how to draw mind you. I made new friends there including my tutor's younger brother. I was just helping out for the open house so yeah, they appoint me to be the art teacher. Fun stuff.

Oh and jess, when are we going to meet up? LOL

Thats about it dear readers. adios

Overnight mania

2008-12-07T23:44:00.003+08:00

Woohoo, now im at Lyna crib!!!!

Whatever for? Studying of course
WE ARE GOING TO CHIONG TONIGHT!!! Yipideeeyaa! Anyways

WISH ME LUCK K PEOPLE

J'taime the many2

And thanks Jessabel =)

Im stress

2008-12-03T08:31:00.002+08:00

Im planning to go my sister crib next week but I don't think I am able to.

Reason: My dad begins to thinks negatively about my sister so there is a low chance of him letting me to stay overnight at my sis crib

If I didn't go, that's it. I want to kill myself. Goodbye my dearest bestfriends.

SHOW SOME RESPECT

2008-11-17T22:34:00.004+08:00

TO MY DEAREST EX BOYFRIEND

DON'T PASS ME AROUND. THANK YOU

>.< !!

school

2008-11-16T21:26:00.003+08:00

By sha

Been freaking busy with school and personal problems lately.

School. Oh lord, please make my day tomorrow. French class is the first thing in the morning. At 8 odd. Nevermind about that, Im looking forward to it.

Ok, time for me to get things done for school. Revision, practice french.

Warning: Explosive female is coming your way through. -Need anger management-

I got tagged yay

2008-11-15T14:05:00.003+08:00

By Sha

I've been tagged by Sue.
The rules & regulations:

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state this rule clearly
3) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names
4) No tagging back.

10 weird things about me :
1. I want to do tae kwan do even though I didn't attend for it

2. I like to eat two BigMac burgers but still I don't feel full

3. I like to dance in the bathroom and slip and fall [that was in the past]

4. Sometimes I will go to bed very early around 8 pm [it becomes a habit for me]

5. I tend to forget orchard so thats why i say "I forget how to go far east plaza, or lucky plaza or anywhere [very short term memory so I have to check the map]

6. I want freedom but I'm afraid at night if I were to be outside

7. I love gore and violent shows

8. I love jumping around

9. My imagination runs wild for no reason

10. I like to fart

10 people would be : To, whoever, wants, to, do, just, do, it, for, fun.

Fed up with you babe

2008-11-12T11:09:00.004+08:00

By Sha

Seriously speaking, Im not a person who is calculative about money. I don't care about it and even if you didn't pay me back, I don't mind. Its fine with me. Im not saying that you are calculative or what but I just dislike your character when it come to this.

First I want to say thanks for everything, having the trouble to come down all the way to boon lay and comfort me when Im down. I would like to say big thanks and I said it from the bottom of my heart.

And lastly, what you did to me really makes me angry, making me pissed off more than ever. Yeah, I know I'm desperate for work. Need to pay off my bills, etc, etc. And you offer me this work at bukit panjang. You want me to work there if possible. Of course I will, I just need the money so I ask if you have any money to spare. You told me that you owed me 10 bucks but you wanted to give me 5 bucks first. Well, I don't even remember that you owed me in the first place because I really don't mind actually. I give it willingly.

Once that, I ask you a favour, to meet me today at least, pass em the money so I can work and not be dependent on anyone for goodness sake. You can't so I ask what about the day after? You told me you are freaking busy with whatever reasons you can come up with. And after that, you told me about this going to work on Monday with isha at around 5. [As if that is the important issue here].

When you need people to come down for your sister's wedding, I'm willing to for friend's sake. You begged me. I tried to squeeze my time for you. And now, Im desperate. But I didn't beg you. I just stay calm. No rush[yeah, lame2 kene ambil orang siak keje tu].

And guess what? Interesting fact here as though I have no clue about working life. My last reply to you is this "Sudah la. Tak payah." and you replied why. I didn't even bother to reply you back and what pisses me off more than ever is this message you send me after the last reply you got from me. Nice one.

"tapi tk confirm tao dpt pat bukit panjang...bukit batok pon nk org..pat westmall sane, kite tk semestinye keje sama..actually aku nak tapi isha tu sibok nk jugak...haha"

Macam aku baru beranak semalam je tk tau yg kite tk semestinye keje same2. Sedangkan aku apply byk keje tap tk dpt same pon dgn member aku. Tu pon aku tk dpt siol keje psl dah byk org.

So I will be applying at westmall then.I don't bother to tell you okay. Malas uh, serious shit babe. But thanks anyway.

School starts and time to study. Oh bummer

2008-10-17T20:41:00.000+08:00

By sha

Dear readers, Im very sorry to say this.

I won't be blogging as often since I have school to focus on. I may update once in a while or my mood suddenly turn to hurricane, tsunami whatever shit you want to put it.

Ok, gtg now. bye

2008-10-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- who doesn't?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- depends if its months or years.

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
- bleh...

4. What would you do if the one who you love once already taken but regret in the end and come crawling back to you?
- lol. I dunno.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend who happen to be a girl?
- you can't choose who to fall in love with.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being loved by someone.

7. List out your CURRENT 15 favourite songs:
1. Heartbeat - Stereo Skyline
2. See You In The Dark - Honour Society
3. Beating Hearts Baby - Head Automatica
4. Jezabel - Two Hours Traffic
5. Dirty Dancing - New Kids On The Block
6. A Little Piece Of Heaven - Avenged Sevenfold
7. Virginia Symphony - Hello Beautiful
8. Kiss Me - New Found Glory
9. Fallen Leaves - Billy Talent
10. Shake It - Metro Station
11. Gay Boyfriend The Hazards
12. Everytime - Airdate
13. Baby Girl, I'm a Blur - Say Anything
14. Prepare to Be Digitally Manipulated -Four Year Strong
15. Ur So Gay- Katy Perry

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Lol. I will probably be annoying my friends with facts of the dude they heard 2827102801 million times before. Or they might crazy hearing about the dude's name everytime.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- i forgot.

10. Do you have any regrets?
- Yes.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Probably studying at a uni.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Kak Ain,Khairina, Farahin.

13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
- She is crazy. =p She is the kind of person who will help anyone in need. She can be your listening ear. Very pretty and sexy la.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single and rich.

15. Is there a song that motivates you in any way?
- Maybe.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- i don't know.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- The one i can see having a future with.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Nope.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Relationship.

20. 5 people I have tagged:
1. Khairina
2. Farahin
3. idk
4. idk
5. idk

FRENCH

2008-10-13T23:47:00.002+08:00

By Sha

OMG! OMG! OMG!

I GOT FRENCH FOR MY ELECTIVE STUPID LANGUAGE. I NEED TO PASS THIS OR ELSE IM DOOM.

BUT STILL, IM HAPPY THAT IM NOT INTO THAT ELECTIVE, THINKING AND PROBLEM SKILLS WHATEVER SHITS.

OMG. I CAN'T BELIEVE I GOT FRENCH. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

WOOO! OMG!

Quiz

2008-10-11T19:47:00.002+08:00

By sha

I was tag to do this so ok, i do it then =D

I was being tag by Rin

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- yes. K diam

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- I actually feel awkward to do so.

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
-I LIKE THIS QUESTION THE BEST. YES AT TIMES TO KILL BOREDOM

4. What would you do if the one who you love once already taken but regret in the end and come crawling back to you?
- I break his face =)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend who happen to be a girl?
- Hehehehehehe

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being loved by someone la oi!

7. List out your CURRENT 15 favourite songs:
1. Little things - Lily Allen
2. Smile-Lily Allen
3. Ya Rab- Marwan Khoury feat Caroline
4. So What- Pink
5. 3's & 7's-Queens of the stone
6. The Seeker- The Who
7. World long gone- Scars On Broadway
8. They Say - Scars on Broadway
9. Holiday In Cambodia - The Dead Kennedys
10. Rock you like hurricane - Scorpions
11. Paranoid- Black Sabbath
12. Seize the day- Avenged Seven Fold
13. The Metal -Tenacious D
14. Monster - The Automatic
15. I kissed a girl - Katy Perry

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- You know, I just relax though at home I will be like "ALA FUCCCCCK LA" but stay cool

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- Yeah, that manga! Trinity blood. VAMPIRE OH VAMPIRE

10. Do you have any regrets?
- Yes.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Got a qualification, good job, managing my business to come, big house all by myself.

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- The superior 8[Me, naz, rin, sue, lin, maryam, nora, syura], my dearest sis, Jessabel, my cow azmir, my Oda [its a character from a video game, k diam eh]

13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
- She very hot and got nice boobs. Nice to touch. Her butt nice, very firm <--- jangan bunoh aku =D

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Single and rich. Im fucking serious about this =D

15. Is there a song that motivates you in any way?
- World long gone by The Scars Broadway

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Sometimes, I did that without noticing it. That is my fucking weakness. Thats why I don't want to get into relationship for now. IM FUCKING SERIOUS ABOUT THAT

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- I seriously have no idea. Got to admit, Im stupid when It comes to love. To play safe, don't get into that situation in the first place.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Ahaha, Im facing it now.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
- Single. Dead serious

20. 5 people I have tagged:
1. Jess
2. Suhaila
3. Cassie
4. Glenn
5. Jared

Disco disco woo woo

2008-10-03T15:01:00.001+08:00

By sha

Im happy. Very the happy. Im soo happy. I very gilerrrr

I bought new hp and cannot wait for raya.

Im so happy mcm buang terbiat.

OK bye bye AAHAHHA!

My eng getting terrible coz Im high now. =_= WOO WOO

selamat hari raya everyone!

2008-10-01T07:02:00.007+08:00

By sha

Today is the day where all muslims gather together and celebrate this festive season

Hari raya

But, I don't feel any excitement at all. I don't know why. I felt that, its nothing special and well, not looking forward to anything. Nothing excites me at all. Maybe I should just sleep like I always do. Ok maybe not or my family will kill me which means

I don't know why I don't feel this year raya exciting or special. Lord, why oh why? sigh

Anyway, selamat hari raya everyone! Forgive me for all the mistakes I have done towards you guys if any. If i have talk harshly or anything, forgive me k. I actually not good at doing this ahaha but seriously, i sincerely forgive all of u. Forget the past, lets start a new one here. Maybe this hari raya is suppose to be the day where we reflect on ourselves and start a new? I am starting a new now. Yeap, thats how I feel. Reading back all the post that I update, geez, I feel like slapping my forehead ahahahaha. OK then, Selamat hari raya everyone, to my gals, I love you! ^_^ I forgive you all yaaaw ahaha.

sigh, i still don't know why i don't feel the mood for raya-ing. ARGH

oh and these are the video i promise to post it for jared

=_=

2008-09-27T04:08:00.003+08:00

Dearest Rin

Aiyo amma! *smack my own forehead*

My post is for all the people out there not my besties.

Whatever I said about all that is my interest especially the baby part ^_^ heheh

But for now i feel so kinda fuck up but when it come to you gals, aku tak kisah lerrrrr

=________________________________=

Oh and about the match make

That one I really don't like it. Seriously. I prefer to find by myself =D

Tu je la psl post aku =_=

and abt being cold to people

I only intend to be cold to others not my besties (-_-''')

yanadeh

Lots of love
ain kick arse wooo

Im cold as hell i think

2008-09-26T04:52:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Now

Ladies and gentlemen

When you come up to me and wanted to start talking, better get all this in your head.

1) Don't talk to me about babies. To hell to them. Im not going to be like "Oh, I want to have a baby boy!" You said something like that, Imma gonna tell you to fuck off.

2) Don't fucking match make me. I had enough of MEN =) You match make me, Im going to yank at you.

3) If I happen to get on your nerves by behaving like some arrogant and ignorant bitch, well get a life. Im not like the old me, friendly and stuff. _|_ FUCK YOU

You are not my close friend so don't bother. Want to get to know me, then better be fucking sincere about it

BECAUSE IM NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY RELATIONSHIP TILL THE END

Not convinced? Its impossible?

Then have it your way. Why the hell I want to convince you fuckers out there.

Got any issues about this? Then

fuck off. I don't need your opinion.

Damn it

2008-09-25T02:54:00.003+08:00

By Sha

Im having a serious headache. More to migraine and stupid fever which comes randomly. Accompanied by flu.

I can't fast. Damn, the migraine really kills me big time. I felt as though my veins going to burst any minute now,

Don't tell me to rest and stuff. I already did that. I SLEEP FOR ALMOST 19 HRS PER DAY and I drank lots of water mind you. Took panadol, lemsip etc just to kill this shit. ITS NOT WORKING.

Clinic? It will prescribe you with the same medication.

2008-09-24T23:46:00.007+08:00

By Bell

Yeahhh...

I have something to look forward to after the exams. =]

Friend indeed?

2008-09-24T04:24:00.003+08:00

By Sha

I am not feeling good nowadays
I don't know why

TSK!

Anyways, I feel kind of bad that I sound insensitive but you have to remember

Where are you when we need you?

You disappear

Even when Im with that TOOOOOT, I did keep in touch with them. I remember texting naz but not that much. I did come to her house and pay a visit and stuff EVEN THOUGH I NEGLECT HER AND OTHERS

Now, you see, Im like much worse than you but still I did try to keep in touch with them once in a while. I know you did contact with me but what about them?

Did you? They are your friends too you know.

Yes, I am your closest friend. We been together ever since primary but when it comes to facts, I mean no harm. Im not backstabbing you in any way.

Thank you for the help you've given me and I put so much trust in you simply because I known you for a long time. But still, I also put so much trust in others as well. Yes, I do know that i say this to you

"i trust u a lot coz i know u since primary"

then again, when i think back, yeah its natural to feel that way in my opinion only at times. Only at times.

You fail to keep in touch with us. Now, its kind of rotten if you ask me. Yes I do miss you but now I miss them even more. Yes THEM.

Thank you for being there for me though. I do love you still. I know you are busy with school and stuff. I try my best to keep in touch with you. But there are something that you should know.

Most of the time, due to whatever reason you had, the promises that you made were never kept. Instead, you broke them. Unable to turn up, this and that, yada yada yada.

Tell me, how are we suppose to follow your taste and suit it the way you wanted it when we been through that ever since secondary. And now, its not that we deliberately didn't want to postpone it. Its just that, we are afraid that you can't make it. Please understand ok? Yeah I know you have your reasons. We have ours too and obviously we are not asking for a fight here. You are still my friend and I do love you ok? So don't think that we don't appreciate you. We do, but I think its time for you to wake up la syg. =)

This is the fact. Im just stating the facts here

Like I said, Im not backstabbing. Im telling the whole truth here. Not hiding.

Anyway, I love you and stick together till the end.

and to rin, naz, sue, mir, jess

I love you all.

Mir, sudah tu sudah. Aku syg kau so forget wad i say.

=)

2008-09-18T18:11:00.001+08:00

Got nothing to say here

What did I do today?

Ans: SIGH

wish things will be alright

2008-09-08T01:18:00.002+08:00

By sha

Talked to Jess on the phone,making some predictions on how its going to be like soon.

Drop that topic. Lets move on another topic.

Today's topic is "Are girls really troublesome? Or boys can't treat them right? Screw them? Elaborate"

My opinion

I have been into a relationship[who doesn't?]. A relationship that brought me a valuable lesson up till today. It was the serious one and to my stupidity, I have lost everything at that point of time. There is a first time to everything, am I wrong to say that? Still, a little help from my friends, I am able to stand on both of my feet, or at least one foot and stand tall and proud. Though the feeling is still there, wondering, "Do us girls really deserve all this despite the fact that we are there for them, to give them a helping hand? Does that make us troublesome? annoying creatures from some other planet on the solar system?" I remember he told me this

"Do you know what is my obstacles? is YOU. You are the source to it and you somehow demoralise me in whatever Im doing"

Vey comforting indeed.
The very blatant truth, I want him to priortise his time to get where he suppose to be. Im not bragging about my past here. What is past is the past, let gone be by gone, once bitten twice shy whatever shit you want to put it here. I am just giving you examples on today topic.

So, you be the judge. Am i wrong to say that we girls are actually superior in a way at times? If so, why can't they see it that way? It is because their ego is taking them over, making them feel as though they are much more superior than us until they were and still drifted till today? I beg to differ.

Im not implying that ALL men are like that. Let me rephrase this once again. Not all BOYS are like that. {Boy is the most appropriate word in this case}. However, I still feel that thanks to them, we tend to say this phrase which all of us heard before.

"Friends are forever, Guys are whatever"

Don't get me wrong, what Im doing here is to discuss about how you feel all this while regarding about this problem that we have face countless times.

Now its your turn to speak out what is in your mind in your blog. Reply me trough your blog.

Saw Loser.

2008-09-04T02:11:00.007+08:00

By Bell

Went for "Glo For Youth" on 1st September with QIANHUIIIIIII!
We went there to watch Saw Loser's last gig. =[
There were other bands too.
Anyway here are some the pics i took of Saw Loser.
I may post the other band pics some other time.
Didn't get any good shots of the drummer.
But i got a good close pic of him. =]
Me and Qianhui got to meet them all.
Really nice guys.

SAW LOSER!

Lucky Valentine: Vocals

Mas Kimura: Guitar

Jimmy Novacaine: Bass

The drummer is guy with the blond hair.

His name Shingles

Just be patience

2008-09-01T14:36:00.002+08:00

I want to say
Congrats to him, since he make his choice by choosing her

Well, if that is what you want, then go. For God is not blind and He will help me along the way. All I have to do is patience.

And that is the key to make you open your eyes once again and see all this while, you are blind to see the inner me.

I have no regrets. And honey, im sure you going to regret one day about this decision you are making. Its really obvious. I don't mind at all =)

And Im so kind that I actually wish you both to be happy for now

im done blogging. wooohooo!

sidenote- I LOVE MY BESTIES! I LOVE RIN. SERIOUSLY!

haha

2008-08-27T09:27:00.004+08:00

Yay i hurt him. YES!

HAHAHA!

ok bye

Amy

2008-08-17T17:05:00.001+08:00

Yo yo peeps
wazz up
ahahaha! today im in a good mood
thanks to SURIA channel
they open up the song Issabella by Amy Search
Good choice coz somehow my brain starts to tink
ISSABERAK
i dun noe why

so people, kol me Amy from now on
i tink the name is awesome
ok pe ahahahaha
AMY, KOL ME THAT
DIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, ISSABERAK!
alrite, buy my new album aites ahahahaaha!

SINGFESTTTTTTTTT! =] (Day 2)

2008-08-10T15:06:00.011+08:00

By Bell

Posting pics of Stacie Orrico,Jamie Scott, OneRepublic and Panic at the Disco ;]
I didn't past EVERY single pics of panic at the disco because im lazy like that. =]
Oh and i mostly took Ryan Ross and Brendon coz they were nearer to me.
No Jon or Spencer =[

Stacie Orrico
She was better than expected.

Jamie Scott
Lol To be honest i nearly fell asleep during his set but his hotness kept me awake.

OneRepublic
They were nice =]
Read khairina's blog for the details.

PANIC AT THE DISCO ;]

No Wonder the mic got fcuked up after that.
Lucky Mic. ;]

He looks like a doll.

Cute!

So I still have ALOT more pics of them especially ryan but their not good.
Most of the pics i took of ryan are him have this :O face. -_-
I still have more pics of him soing that. Lol.

Oh and Me & Kim met Jon Walker. From Panic At The Disco.
Not simple plan or one republic but from PANIC AT THE DISCO =D

TEAM PANIC <3333
Hope we can meet up soon.

2008-08-08T22:02:00.004+08:00

Khairina betch,
Here are more pics of your boyfriend.
There is even pic of his ass. ;]
I didn't resize the pics cz i know you wan to look at his sexayyyy face closer. =]
Have fun okay bebeh looking at those pics ;]
Love,
Jezz

(click the ics to make it bigger okeh?)

Lostprophets and two random Levis Guy Model... ;]

2008-08-08T21:19:00.006+08:00

By Bell
I only manage to take like 10 good pics of Lostprophets and 4 pics of the models coz the crowd went crazy during their set and the fashion show.
Yes, during the fashion show the girls behind me went crazy because i guess they wanted a better look of the guys? =_=

Lostprophets

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Fashion Show

2008-08-08T20:46:00.014+08:00

By Bell
So i was lazy yesterday thats why i didn't post....
The picsssss

Melee

New Found Glory

Simple Plan

I only took one pi of him coz he came to my side like once or twice only?

SINGFESTTTTTTTTT! =]

2008-08-06T20:53:00.006+08:00

By Bell

So I finally got my LAZY ass to upload those pictures but I didn't upload every single picture I took because it would take me forever since I took 1000+ pictures.

Oh and I mostly took lead singers/guitarist/bassist because they were more to my side.
Sorry no drummers because they were like at the back of the stage. =[

I haven't put all the bands picture i took in this post coz I'm lazy like that. =]

So today i uploaded half the bands/artist for 2ND August -Day 1.

Melanie

Sorry for only taking one picture.She was interesting to look at so i didn't bother to take pictures.
She is so pretty and nice! =]

Crowned King

The lead singer.

Dearest

The guitarist.

Cute right? ;]

Bassist...

I like his chest piece =D

AND THE SINGER!

Who is also Khairina BOYFRIEND! ;]

Simple Plan,New Found Glory and Lostprophets photos will be posted tomorrow.

dreams

2008-07-31T08:52:00.002+08:00

i don't know why i have that dream
there are some things left unsaid in here
all i can say is that, that dream almost killed me

no, don't tell me its true
don't give me false hope
even though i want it to be true

but with faith come along and patience
it will happen
hearts may change, mind may change
in the Will of God

im confuse
doubting
i think God wants me to be prepared for the worst
in order to achieve that golden moment i yearn for

azmir did say
its going to be extremely tough
support me
i got to be prepared for the worst

im facing a crucial test now
damn it
if only i got strength

Getting a new look

2008-07-30T08:33:00.004+08:00

Geezes, Im in the lab now. Tak blajar. There is nothing to study anyway because its Graphic Design Lerrrr =_= blajar the cursor uh if you want to.

Anyways!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am planning to get a new hair look. Damn it, first I got to get my hair straight then i cut my hair. I have been planning to have that kind of look for YEARS! and toooot! I can't get that hair cut! People. I NEED HELP! PLEASE PLEASE AND DOUBLE PLEASE!

I want to aim this look

Now, how in the world am I suppose to get that kind of hair cut!?!?!?!?!?!?!

2008-07-29T23:20:00.004+08:00

By Bell
Move on, he's just a chapter in the past. Don't close the book, just turn the page.

~Some things are just not meant to be, no matter how much we wish they were.

Male stripper?
Hahah.

so fed up

2008-07-29T11:44:00.005+08:00

After the stupid break up session with hadri, I have lots of fun. I was enjoying myself and determine to study hard for my future. Determine to change myself, bit by bit.

Until one awful even came up after that.

Hadri's 2nd cousin. How stupid can it get. I don't know what is the truth behind it but heck, showing your happy face is a big NONO when it comes to break up whatever the reason is.

Happy because I can finally focus in my studies? or happy that you can take an opportunity to take his place?

but so what? That doesn't mean you can just smile away while im having my sorrows. How could you? And thanks to that, our friendship is over. Shut the heck up. I will still hang with shirin n ivan and tok to them but you will not exist in my life.

Don't ever talk to me unless its important. School stuff and all, im fine but other than that, I suggest you better stay away from me. You heard that?

Don't even think of walking home with me or meet me to go to school together.

Ok enough said. Time to head back to my books.

2008-07-20T22:51:00.002+08:00

By Bell

Kak,
When it’s time to let go, give yourself time to heal, cry if you need to, and grieve if you have to.
It’s the process of healing, but don’t stop there; get a life, it’s not the end of the world.
Yes life is tough, but you have to embrace it, live it because it’s your life.
This Is Life.
It may not be a beautiful life but you have to own it, it’s yours and you can make it beautiful.

By letting go, I am not implying "to forget" or "to ignore."
By all means, we should carry with us the happy memories and the lessons we have learned from our past relationships.
However, we need to let go in the sense of releasing emotional baggage we may be carrying around with us, so that we may be open to, and present for, a new relationship.

&&
Let go, set him free, set your self free, and move on.
If he is really meant for you, time will tell and your paths will meet again.

2008-07-19T19:45:00.004+08:00

By sha

Lame attitude

CHILDISH

fikir pakai otak ok sayang

LMAO =D

2008-07-15T00:02:00.001+08:00

Things have changed for me;
And that's okay.

2008-07-03T17:44:00.001+08:00

By Bell.

Luckiest Day Ever. =D

My fav. song

2008-06-19T15:59:00.001+08:00

I'd die without you by Yngwie Malmsteen

2008-06-15T21:18:00.001+08:00

Waiting for Pushing Daisies to start.
I love that show.

There's a little creepy house
In a little creepy place
Little creepy town
In a little creepy world
Little creepy girl
With her little creepy face
Saying funny things that u have never heard.

LINE CAMP!

2008-06-12T17:22:00.002+08:00

By Bell

Had the best day ever. =]

I miss you guys , LG13.

We should have more outings.

Everyone leaves footprints in your memory,

But the ones that leave footprints in your heart

Are the ones you will truly remember.

2008-06-08T22:17:00.003+08:00

posted by sha

Tomorrow my term break start and don't even called it a term break because it didnt act as one. Projects, projects and more projects and worst is yet to come. Only God knows what Im going to do next.

Oh geezes! For crying out loud, I almost forget to do my E-quiz in the school website where you have to attempt stupid and annoying questions that set you thinking for as long as you can stare at the screen blankly. Yes, please read that phrase again if you didnt catch any balls. There is this time limit and you have to attempt ALL questions within the time given to you. Prior to that, I have to manage my time W-I-S-E-L-Y. I was busy intimate with my laptop. Kudos to that.

Good thing tomorrow is the beginning of term break. I'm able to nimble out of my restrictions for a while to visit teddy since he is in a bad condition. Ok so, let me take a look at the situation now. I've text my annoying yet troublesome classmate of mine, Zubair for the lets-meet-up-and-get-screwed-for-the-programming project. I hate this module. Programming. It will trigger your brain to release more brain cells until you run out of them or better still, further damage your brain. Permanent damage to the brain. Fatal. I don't even want to think about that. URGH! Bloody annoying but heck, I have no other alternative choice.

God, if only I can make my own commandments like "Thou shalt not have programming as your module" and that will be awesome. How am suppose to live with this stressful environment. No life for me. Booohuhu =(

2008-05-30T19:16:00.004+08:00

Mampos
test test test
Last 2 week test, last week test, this week presentation
then next week test AGAIN
ARGGGGHHHH!!!!!!! oh oh oh and and and I didnt even start the data communication e-quiz
20 mcq questions....yea, to u guys its juz an mcq. wait till u read the qns.

I MISS TEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDY!

Double sadness...but nvm, we can still keep in contact.
SMS
SMS
SMS
SMS
SMS

Thats what I did today. In lecture theater, I can barely focus so I drew a potrait of some random kid using Zubair's drawing paper. Hehe =) and Teddy knows me damn well. He know that I drew it because im boreeeeeed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YIPEDIYAY

And one of the teddy message makes me go WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

K got to do some revision. URGH. oh lucky today teddy start at 11 pm.

2008-05-14T00:10:00.003+08:00

Posted by Sha

Im worried. Constantly worried. Where, where and where are you? I don't want to let you know that Im worried about you so much down here. Please please please be safe. No matter what, I will always pray for you like I always do.

Sigh.........

Anyway, today Im hyper like ZOMFG WTF?!?!?! Like YEAAAAAAH, I AM. heheh....

ok i tink dats it. I really need this heavy heart of mine filled with worry to relax a bit.

He likes it rough, baby! ;]

2008-05-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

;)

2008-05-09T20:16:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA
It is too damn funny!

CB!

2008-05-08T21:59:00.001+08:00

2008-05-03T20:29:00.002+08:00

By Sha

For goodness sake, I really need to know if my dearest friend is ok.
Oh my god, I don't know what is going on until I read your blog.
Mir, please, whatever it is, I will be here praying for you. Serious shit.
Don't ever say that nobody cares, I care. Like BETOL SIAK, AKU RISAU UTK KAU
Mir, mir, mir, I don't want to lose a friend like you kay

He is at fault because she is your bestie and he have no right to tell you that you shouldnt spend time with her.

THEN WAD ARE BESTIE FOR LA KAN?

bodoh sial

Gosh, mir, I really worried for you. Dah la kau kat Australia, I can't do anything alr but to pray. I hope my prayer answered. Hopefully.

Geez mir, u text me saying that u r on ur way and u r going to be fine. NO, I DUN TINK SO. and u tell me not to cry if anything happen to u. Yea rite mir, kwn sejati tk kan tk nangis kalo pape jadi kat kau. Plz uh mir. I will be waiting for your text and saying dat u r ok. BTOL2 NYE OK tau.

Dear God, don't let anything happen to azmir. Im begging you.

2008-05-02T23:04:00.004+08:00

By sha

Quite a ok day for me
Having a rough day especially about my slippers
and yeah i do have a sweet ending. YAYNESS

Anyway, there this dude I really want to tok about
AZMIR
sigh
AZMIR, WHY LA YOU GO AND SAY I GOT THE LAMEST AND STUPIDEST JOKES EVER
WAH SKALI AKU JOTOS PALE KAU LA EH

hehe and YOU ARE MOST WELCOME MIR
wad are frenz for
U helped me before and I wanna repay your kindness
I owe u one =D

HAHAHA BUT STILL
I CANNOT TAHAN LA
PIPE JADI PEE PEI?!?!
OMG, MIR, GO BACK TO PRIMARY LA AND LEARN HOW TO SEBUT
P-I-P-E
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA

so the memperbodoh2kan
HEHEHE

2008-04-19T19:52:00.003+08:00

By Sha

First of all, I want to say Im sorry for all the harsh words earlier on. Yea, I got to admit, its really hurting till you cried your heart. I have to do that in order for you to realise your mistakes. Everybody makes mistakes and making sick jokes to your friends numerous times is not the way to solve the problem you have.

Im glad that you didn't want to do it again. If you need help, seek for someone who you can trust. I know you don't need people help for now but IF you encounter problems and misery and you want to let it out, then your true friends are there.

That is why you have to treasure them, understand their feelings. You can joke around but not to the extreme. Try to change the habit. Yes mirabelle, you have to change for the better. Well, I don't blame you for not wanting to change now but please, this is about you. At least there are someone out there who are bound to care for you. Once you are in adult stage, things will be different from what you are having now. Im going to be 20 soon so its a good thing I share with you what is life about.

You are not the only one who have miseries. Even I have miseries, family problems and the list goes on. In this world, no one is free form problems. Ok mirabelle =)

God is there and Im sure God have plan for you. God put problems on you to see how far can you go and endure the test that He has given you. If you really need help and friends did not seem to help you, then seek to God. Im sure you have faith in your religion.

Now that I know you learn from your mistakes, I hope you don't repeat that. Well, maybe you may repeat it but try not to. Yes, TRY ok. Control that urge of yours. I know that is your personality but if you want to joke around, don't make fun of others too the extreme end. There is a limit to everything, ok?

I know you still hurt and Im sorry for all that but its for your own good. Whatever problems you may face, God is watching you and please mirabelle, don't try to do silly things on your hands, ok? Take care and remember what I said.

May God bless you
from Kak Ain

Edit:
By Bell

Somethings dont go your way
love doesnt succeed
friends dissapoint you
life is just insane
live it though
have faith
smile even when you feel you cant
and you will move on.

2008-04-12T15:13:00.001+08:00

By Bell

2008-03-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

posted by sha

Jessabel, I miss you. I hope u r doing fine. sigh

2008-03-02T23:44:00.000+08:00

Look past the fake smile.
Deep inside there's a girl with sorrow in her eyes.
Wishing everything would just end.

2008-03-02T23:11:00.001+08:00

Because If You Really Did, You Wouldn't Have Ignored Me When You Saw Me.
Oh and i wanna know the problem that made you and me not close like before
Because i still Don't know why.